finals are emotionally overwhelming. on multiple levels

yeah i wish i never hadda leave
i wish this club never closed
and i know one thing
that ima always do me
and never be whatcha want
and i know one thing
if i get one more drink
then ima fly to the sky
and you wont see me
no more
said im so high
and i dont wanna be no where else
i said slow down
cause i aint in a hurry

I want bones like iron and blood like mercury, so i can tell you when I'm rising, when i'm sinking in

thank you C

I didn't think of this at the time, but giving you my ID for the week/weekend/extended amout of time is the single-most smartest study girl move i've made this entire year. 

Previously:

Going out tonight? 

No, I can't. Exams...

But it's Topo dancing.. 

Ah okay give me thirty, shots in your room. 

Now: 

Going out tonight?

No, I can't. Exams and.. i mean i just have to study a lot, so.

But it's Topo dancing..

Yeah, go to hell.

Spent Island Hopper $$ on new headphones for library post-ups. So now it's fun to study because I went from taped-up, poking-out wire, falling apart things to Bose-like surround sound acoustic sound waves in and around my brain.

$10 never felt so luxurious. Clutch.

ahh reading day. more refreshing than a cracking open a cold coke

I'm sick of mine too. So done. I need my house.

The Wood Brothers. Look those puppies up.
Effortlessly making their way to the top of my top-25-most-played. #itunes


i can't wait to see you.


Tom's back.
Re-claimed his third of the bachelorette pad.
Thinks he can squiggle his way into the bed at night.
We just put his little Aussie bum back on the floor.

got mad masc slides to count.
and econ to study.
and legs to run.
and ex boyfriends to block from my phone.* #21century.
*this is where i pout my lips out and raise my eyebrows so my forehead crinkles up with that
stuck-up-single girl-i'm-better-than-you- sass. what.

I look pretty good, but I feel just like hell.. Over you..

all 4 for $160? now we're talkin..

if you want something you've never had you've got to do something you've never done before

 

no subject

i literally enjoy waking up in the morning.

Today I realized how little time we have left here.

In college, i mean.

I can count on my fingers how many classes I have left this semester.

After those, I'll be halfway there.

There? No, I like it here, thank you.

I want to stop time and live like this forever.

It's stressful, it's boring, it's exhausting.

I'm having too good of a time. 

We call it life? Oh yeah, that's what we call it... when you can't call it at all

Longingly singing "Baby I'm Yours" by the Arctic Monkeys, for no particular reason.

Having a warm, put-together, sparkly day. For these reasons:
1. Waking up to sunshine, not alarms.
2. Putting on shorts because it's 80 and you just shaved your legs. 
4. Smelling like Banana Boat in your afternoon class.
5. Needing a tissue and having Hello Kitty sniffs on hand.
6. People coming into your secret study lounge, then leaving after seeing you are utilizing the only outlet.
6. Chicken shish kabobs and ASPARAGUS at the house tonight.
7. Drinks on the sun porch after dinner.
8. No morning classes tomorrow = big sleepover in the cuddle palace* tonight!

*Smooshing our beds together to make one big, blanket-y bed = best thing ever.

hello, how ya been? welcome to the dating life eh!

this guy's been wanting to hang out all week. i keep turning down/rescheduling. last night, we finally made plans for a movie Sunday evening (tonight).
Two good male friends tell me not to go, that he just wants to hook up.
I tell me i kind of want to go hang out and watch the movie.
I believe them.
1- because i knew that without them having to tell me. i'm 20, i know my guy language.
2- they're the actual guys.

what? so we can never hang out with guys because all they will ever want to do is hook up? i mean, this can't just be case-specific to this guy.. something tells me my two good male friends know their stuff. i know this whole hang out/watch a movie thing entails comfortable seating which entails couch/bed seating which then entails not actually sitting but laying, which entails cuddling, which.. ok. see. i know. but still, what are we supposed to do? go bowling?

signed,
wtf

/contently single.. but can't a girl want a little cuddling attention from time to time?

Things, #41

i wish people could know other people admire them from afar.

that's all.

also on an unrelated note, i miss Z. 
and i'm eating chocolate about it.

file under: single girl excuses, but it's healthy because it's dark chocolate, things i feel like complaining about and it's only okay on here, yada yada ya ya wah wah okay movie time, wish i were at mike posner with you, have fun, he's hot.

feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you

i beg you... to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart, and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language.  don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them.  and the point is, to live everything. live the questions now. perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.
-rainer maria rilke

after a deep, deep sleep

you're the kinda girl who can take down a man, and lift him back up again

You are strong but you're needy,
Humble but you're greedy.
And based on your body language,
And shoddy cursive I've been reading,
Your style is quite selective,
though your mind is rather reckless
Well I guess it just suggests
that this is just what happiness is

ain't gon' see me waitin on, waitin on, waitin on the day

practiced girl language with TL this weekend

this is him trying to keep up

 Found this cool couch this weekend

 wished for this this weekend

Lined up some summer lessons with some blond babies this weekend. 

 had the room to myself this weekend.

dressed up for no reason by myself this weekend.

stayed in every night this weekend.

missed doing boring things with you this weekend.

applied here this weekend

!!!!

One big grand spankin april foolish continual celebration

best weekend i can recall in a while.

Starting on Wednesday with my dad taking me and some of my best UNC (don't worry) friends (just the fam) to Topo for an extended evening of appetizers, old well whites, over-sized entrees, and hipster dessert:

 It continued on to Thursday when some other favorites and I made a late night entrance to Bandidos, forcing the kitchen and bar to stay open for our presence. #bcitsmybday

It continued on to Friday when I skipped all my classes (!!!) and my roommate took me and Dray out for an extravagant lunch at Mickey d's. m&m McFlurry's included.

Later OPS (ole patty smack) and I left Chapel Hill eastward bound to first pick C up and then to head to our Topsail weekend frat oasis. There are no pictures/words to describe the reunion with C. So forget it and keep wishing you were there.

Friday night through Sunday morning blend together, filled with old favorite people person and new favorite people, surprise birthday champagne from sweet dates, beaches, oceanfront houses, coolers, yachts, dancing, sexy dresses, starry nights, stick driving lessons, and cupcakes. lots of cupcakes.

Sunday came as a bittersweet recovery and close to the topsail adventure. We spent the day lazily walking up and down Wrightsville beach enjoying the refreshing sunshine and cold tide. It ended with Trolley Stop hot dogs and a stomach-sinking goodbye to C.

laugh now. 

Getting back to Chapel Hill was relieving after the long car ride, but I take extreme satisfaction in the pictures that take me instantly back to this weekend.

Sunday night involved  He's Not karaoke of which there are also no pictures with which to document. Hitherto whichtherefore withstanding. More surprise birthday champagne. and random duke male number saved as "swag machindfe" or something like that. Thanks for more birthday Court.

Now to get back into the school thing.
Minus t-shirt and jeans cocktail Thurs.
With this one

:)